This practice of writing every day in a journal really makes me aware of just how much we actually do and how much we touch others.
At the end of July, there was a point I was aware that I see a lot. This felt new on some level, maybe seeing more than I used to. Or maybe just aware there might be more to do with it. I kept thinking I will write more and give it a place to express, and mostly it just doesn’t quite get there, even with all I do write. I also saw the simplicity of “just” working in the non-physical, maybe even letting go of my writing. It was an interesting combination of Isis energy and Round Table energy.
I went dancing. In my mind it was for the first time, but I did go to one dance as an adult probably 20 years ago when I took ballroom dance lessons for a short time. I had lots of feelings before this evening out. I think I was nervous.
We went to Wabasha Street Caves. What a cool place!! We stayed for about two hours of swing dancing. It was absolutely fantastic. He makes it so easy. I think he enjoyed it as much as I did. I never felt like it was my first time dancing. I just danced. I think it is simply that difference between trying and doing. I just danced. I am sure I messed up plenty, but that did not matter to me. I learned a lot. He taught me some specific moves that I am getting better at. It just feels like there is more to learn and more to experience. And those two things I like to do. It was just fun. And, I was actually ready to be done before we quit. My brain and my body were no longer connected the way I was when we started. I was tired. That alone was great.
At the beginning of August, I spent a wonderful week with extended family at a small lake in Michigan.
After I was back home, I had some heavy “work” days in that sleep space, and an extended time of feeling very ill. I had intended to reach out to both of my doctors at one point, with the caveat I think it is connected to current inner work. When I saw that was my knowing, I knew it was okay to trust that. So, I did not reach out and muddy the waters.
Even as I started to feel more normal, I still did not have my normal mentally quickness. Then I started wondering if I am in a bigger process right now and finding my way through it. I remembered talking to my higher self in the more difficult moments and saying the motion sickness and headaches were too much. I needed a gentler way. But, the “bigger I” has my attention down here. I will follow through with what I have promised to do. And I will choose to lie down instead of doing things when I can. No pushing. I will be aware. There was time it was best to simply lie down and not move. Sometimes I would fall asleep for hours. Other times, I would lie there and breathe. And because I was looking, I recognized perfect timing in when I did wake and what actually needed to be done. I noted that everything is in alignment. All is well. This is simply part of a bigger process. Eventually, I came back.
And in this last month, there have been a minimum of five people that I did profound work with. Some may have been part of that bigger process I went through. A couple of the experiences were new to me, things I have not even thought about trying before. It has been really interesting to watch my own experiences, and sometimes to get reflection back from the other.
One was able to give a detailed account from her perspective. Added to mine, it was so cool to see what we did. It was so cool to watch how I work. I really am limitless. I really trust myself deeply. It is different with each person, yet it really works down here. That was just so very amazing.
And sometimes, I still forget this and think I do “nothing” or believe that I shut everything down. It is good that I write some of it down.
I am aware there is more to look at regarding the words I was given to “connect as a channel.” That remains a moving target in my thoughts. I do channel already, written and verbal. I have channeled a bit as far back as I can remember, even if I didn’t call it that. Maybe there is more I wish to open there. Maybe there is another block to move through. We will find out. I did put some words around that in at least one journal entry. And, it did highlight in the birthday Astrology reading yesterday. She spoke of me channeling. I believe she felt that was her channeling when she said it. It feels significant. I am open.
I watch where I have been in this last month. The words beauty and power come to me. That makes me smile. Some of you may remember as I do, those were the words I received on the first labyrinth walk I did all those years/decades ago in the Catholic Church. Some things really don’t change, they simply spiral around to the next level.
I Am Becoming.
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