In July of 2018, I had a session with a friend that I met with occasionally. This was not a first meeting. She knew me. She is, at a minimum, an energy worker, so she knew my energy and the way I work.
I think the easiest way to share, and keep it true to that energy of eight years ago, is to offer it in conversation form.
Marybeth: I had two sessions with another energy worker in the last month. In the first one, I took him into my bones. (This becomes relevant later, so I will leave it in here.)
The next session with him was a breathing session. He led me through his breath stuff. I could feel something with it, but not “it.” There came a moment where I told him I felt I was still being mechanical. I am still doing exactly what you told me to do. I am consciously moving the energies. There has to come a point when my body just does it. He suggested I let go then, and let my breath do what it wanted. Just watch it. And after that, my body started to open. I made sounds. The throat area cleared. My hands and feet started feeling the energy.
I stepped back into that flow I had felt before. I want to call it a river, but it is more electrical than a river. At the end, I felt the facilitator was doing different modalities to ground me, bring me back into the body, but I never felt like I left. I felt clear, present, just with a freight train of energy running through me. I felt I could open my eyes and move on with my day if he simply asked me to. I am starting to feel like this flow of energy is me. It is the me I have been calling in. I feel like it is not going to be or is not about going into it and then coming out of it. At some point, it will simply be being that power.
In the last week I could see different key puzzle pieces. I am starting to see how to attune to this energy. This reminded me of the new Kundalini yoga. There was a piece I did with someone in bringing that in that also turned on this flow of energy once. I want to use that and the breathing to really focus on bringing this level of beingness into the physical. The physical is ready to hold it now.
Friend: There is an understanding of what has been before and allowing that to be. There is an observation and a letting go of what has been so that you can be free flowing. It is allowing the old energy to go to make room for the new.
Marybeth: I am feeling both groundedness and freedom. (I shared factual pieces going on in my life at that time.) There is huge synchronicity behind that coming together. Again, I see this freedom piece.
Earlier I had felt like we took the brakes off. Recently, I remember feeling we now have a foot on the accelerator. I feel like with what is being offered now, there is a question: Do you really want your foot on the accelerator? I think things are really going to open now.
(I shared another personal bit with her that was going on right then. Again, I shared where I have been, what I have done in the past, and where I think I am ready to play now.)
I think what I really do want is to continue to move forward and to allow this beingness to actually come in. It is going to change things. There is a new stability that will come from this.
Friend: From outside looking in, notice all you have already created in your life. All of that has been big shifts. Really amazing and everything you could have possibly wanted. It is integrating it now. We can think it, want it, yearn for it, but then receiving it is another step. Am I worthy? On a human level, it is a lot to take in.
Marybeth: This is the first time in my life where I am not feeling a “wait” in it or a “turning on” my patience. All that waiting / patience stuff is gone. From the outside, it can look like I am waiting again, but I trust me on those physical pieces. Here, now, I don’t have to wait to continue to bring in this beingness that is going to help us move forward. It my job to not step back and wait again. It is here now. It is time to create.
It is time to move at my speed, how I am comfortable doing it. I need to continue to trust me and my own knowing. Right now, I am working every morning with invoking this power flow through me, turning it on. I can do it, not at the level it flowed through the breath work sessions though.
I feel like everything is supporting me. I stepped the other day from always knowing I have layers of protection and angels and faeries around me taking care of me to I have legions of support on every level. It became legions. It became immense beyond need.
Friend: And why would you have access to legions of protection unless your energy is going to shift so much potentially that then there is the need, the necessity for legions of protection? It is another confirmation in a way.
Marybeth: There is so much absolutely, solidly around me to take this step. Every level. I always have a cheat sheet. I always have the answers, the confirmation, before I step into the next level.
Friend: When you have mastered this level of power yourself, and you have comfortably integrated it, I see that you then, like any Reiki or forms of healing, you will start to attune people. You will start to teach people the different levels of how this energy can be used, not at the frequency you are experiencing it at, but at the level of frequency that they can handle and deal with.
You notice you interpret this through superhuman action figures (i.e. throwing a fireball), but even those characters had to come from somewhere. Notice what has come through in the comics as a small caricature of what is actually possible from that realm.
Marybeth: I remember the words in Egypt – I could power a kingdom. In Egypt, that made sense to me. I could feel it. I knew the level of power that was available to be an undifferentiated source that anyone could draw from to do what they wanted to do with it. It was not about me, but that power was me.
Friend: This energy will become wider and stronger. You will know it more and more within the fabric of your being.
Marybeth: Others have brought to my attention recently the many different worlds people are playing in on the Earth right now. I am starting to see now, in what is available through who I am, that I can start to consciously create a kingdom, create a realm that I can power, and anyone that wants to step into it, will be able to step in and create from what I have built: come, go, play, learn.
Everyone can (and does) live in their own world anyway. I am just seeing I can create a kingdom here in a very expansive way that I love, my way of being, and that I can expand to make it available to be used, to be of potential benefit, to others who might be looking for what I have already stepped into and brought through. Because I am here in a physical body, I am human, bringing that level of energy, power, river, that flow into the physical. I am a conduit. That is what powers a kingdom.
If you take it into just the physical, and outside the realm that actually holds the physical, you can call it electricity and you can call it water and you can call it the infrastructure. But I am starting to see how I can be the power behind that infrastructure that will allow the infrastructure to take hold.
Friend: This energy goes beyond singular people. It is also in business. There is a huge resonance behind that. I can see that you are going to get into the realms of businesses coming to you, not for the practical advice, but to spend time with you, plugging into you, for a very poor way of expressing it. It is almost like: Look, come to me, I’ll hold the space, we can brainstorm together, and I will be here. I will exude what I have. If something comes up that I feel an alarm bell, or I feel the flow opening behind it, then I will say something. I will put that in your melting pot.
You can be an overseer. [To be continued in Part 2].
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