This is energy and experience from a couple days ago, but I will keep it written in present moment. It was a really diverse day. I will share some of it.
In the early morning hours, in that waking space, I don’t remember what I felt or saw, but I remember choosing to play with creating the liquid golden light and then running it through my systems. This was something taught in Mastering Alchemy. I remember one time in particular, years after those classes ended, where I found myself running those energies. It just happened. There was no thought.
Working with creating liquid light is staying with me through the day. I am a yes to playing here. I feel Yeshua as I touch this space. I hear his pointer, “This ability that I have had, to hold to a higher space with consistency and expectancy, delivered into my physical aura as an energy of certainty and an energy of authority. In holding this higher space, there is available to you, dear Marybeth, this capability.”
This was presented in the three octaves I referred to earlier, with the spinning Genie energy in the middle one. I question if I want to play directly with the Mastering Alchemy work again, especially this part. But in feeling Yeshua, I am also wondering if my way in is to simply “step back” as I feel it, not try to recreate it, and simply witness, watch, put my own words to my experiences. Knowing this is possible may be my gift from those courses, not going back to practice them in that way.
It is funny because I was just seeing the real value in always pointing others to experiment themselves with what I or others say. If they just go by my words and “believe it”, their definition of a single word, much less a grouping of a sentence, may feel totally different within them, may have totally different meaning. I have watched people think they understood what I said, but I see they have not heard at all. There is no energetic flow or resonance when they speak, even if they use the same or similar words. It is not even about different truths in this example. It is simply we have our own experiences, and we have our own filters. These filters are by design. This takes me around to the importance of bringing an understanding of our own design, or knowing thyself.
In seeing that piece within my writing here, I wonder if what I was seeing for others is also a pointer for me to experiment with this liquid golden light and not let my mind take control by saying, “Oh, I remember we were taught how to do that. Let me do it that way.”
I shall play differently if it shows up again.
I love my life. It feels like each day is so diverse. Yet every day I feel such appreciation. Today, one of the specific pieces is a friend that reached out to let me know she read my blogs today. I had just sent out the newsletter that morning. That made me feel good. I really enjoy the connection and the comments. I understand it opens spaces for others. I like that.
There is another space I am starting to watch. I don’t know how long I have sort of seen it, but in this energy of today, it has come to the surface. I started to open into some work with a special person in my life a few years ago now. I am aware of seeing it may be time look for the opportunity to open this again, to take the next step. I send out feelers to poke energetically in this moment of connection. Maybe it is time now.
Day One
And last, but certainly not least. I took brief notes on the potential energy work at a soccer game. I wanted to be sure I kept the thought. I saw it, the potential, a couple times and I felt it was in that opportunity space and I wanted to follow through. Sometimes I lose that quiet voice, that quiet knowing.
The part of me that knows, knows that it has started. I have already put it in motion. And I am aware I want to feed it, nourish it.
It is not a space I will give details of, for that is simply the playground and involves others. What is significant to me is this is a first for me in this type of play. It is yet to be seen if I am successful, but this is a first that I am willing to direct energy in this way. I just wish to share what I see and how I am experimenting with creating now.
A year or two ago, I had a very powerful, emotional, intense experience. I saw a lot. I believe I took action in the moments of it opening. It affected this current lifetime, the thread to seeing it came from this lifetime, but I saw beyond this lifetime. I have not yet gone back to read my journal, but my memory says I ended up feeling I was complete with what could be done, but that it was not fully resolved. Most people would put the word karma to this. The full karma was not resolved. But I felt no more could be done. I let it go and have not thought about it since.
But today, I was following my thoughts. There was one thread that kept coming into my mind in different ways that really was just not relevant. Until something triggered the memory of that experience. Then I had, focus, precision, and knowing. Yes I did question it throughout it landing because it is in the non-physical.
The first experience had been “just” in the non-physical also. I really did question my experience back then. But when I shared it with another, it became real to me based on their response. This much time later, I do trust me now. It just is.
When I look at creating, when I see something I actually want, I understand that simply a curiosity is enough. The answer is not so much a specific answer, but a connection to a flow and feeling and a response. I feel this connection here. I am witnessing the flow. This is creation in process.
This is about freedom. We could call it a freedom from karma as we bring a full resolution now, at this spiral. This is about the greater freedom. It is not the freedom that the identity might conceive, but it is more a fluidity and a freedom of being.
I want to do this now because I see it is possible to do in this lifetime and it does matter, or it would not have come up again. I was complete when I first saw it a year or two ago. Now, I feel directing this energy. I feel my willingness to engage here, to call it in.
Day 2
As I have looked, I do not see that I am initiating from a Human Design perspective, this sending energetics to open this space for full and complete healing. I feel like I am responding. I feel like it’s one of those pieces that just came out of nowhere, an opportunity. It was just there, and eventually I noticed. This is the way my energy works. This I can trust.
But, keep an eye on it. Actually, I am good. I have no attachment to any result at all. I think my biggest fear here is that in having no attachment I might forget about it and will have to wait until it cycles back to see it again. That is clearly not initiating by the definitions I have been given.
So again, I say yes. I am in. And it is way more than that really. I invoke resolution, full resolution of this energy.
I see or feel it as sending out small vortexes of energy to both open and pave the way for appropriate and beneficial synchronicities. I feel my breath change. I soften. I am present. I command. I take responsibility and ownership. I take authority.
I trust it is time now, for I have seen it again now. My energy confirms this is a yes from me down here. I will only take physical action when I am responding to a situation, other than sending these energetic vortexes out. I have no intention to try to control the situation. It will open or it won’t.
This level of command may be new. This willingness to create from the non-physical intentionally is new. I have been told I send this energy and information out, but I have never been aware of doing it before. And it was never seen prior, only in hindsight. And this came as a choice. It was not required of me. It did not “just happen.” Only the seeing it “just happened.” And I can see it as a want. Yes, I actually want full resolution, full healing. I choose this for myself.
If there is a role for me to play again, I ask for assistance in seeing it and playing my role graciously. I close my eyes. I know I am capable. I have done that before.
I do not require there be a role for me. I simply set the stage. I prime the energy. I send blessings. I call for full and complete healing to be made available, in synchronicity, to be chosen, to be stepped into.
There is choice for all involved. This energy I send out cannot impose, will not impose. It is an energy of opening and paving the way. It is an energy of clarity, of seeing, of making possible.
The other piece I keep seeing is Magical Awakening. I know how to work in time and space from that. I wonder if I have already done it as I saw those pieces through these two days, or if that is yet to physically do and add intention and down-here presence. I will let my sacral energy lead me, not my thoughts. And, equally, I appreciate my thoughts, my cognition, and my expression here as I bring words to that which I experience internally. I appreciate me, the whole team of me.
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