Once I let go of trying to make the Kundalini Yoga work for me, I found an Iyengar Yoga teacher 3 minutes from my London home. I have gone to two classes and she is really good for me – exactly what I was looking for.
Yesterday’s class was excellent. I was a bit tired before class, but I noticed how excited I was once I was walking to class. I want to say my body was excited, but here I would like to say I am starting to differentiate between my physical body and my energy body. It was my energy body that was excited, but that woke up my physical body, too.
During class, I went very deep into some of the postures and into the breathing. I felt postures I have done before in a new way. And I noticed how excited I was, whatever part of me, by the end of class. Yes, I clapped – it was overflowing and had to be expressed.
I also noticed for several hours after class that there was something a bit out of balance. It was not full-on motion sickness, but I did question if I had tapped into that energy again, just lighter. I just noticed it. I held a light curiosity. I did not go into the question or into the feeling.
This morning, as I was in conversation, I let my body move as it wished to. This is not new. As we discovered in yoga yesterday, I often sit in yoga “poses”. And I have been allowing this spontaneous body movement for at least months. It is normally stretches or arm exercises. As the conversation was completing, I started jumping, legs out and then in. As the intensity of that increased, I added my arms so I was doing jumping jacks. Then something shifted in my arms. It might be they were now moving opposite in comparison with my legs from what they were before. And then I felt the side muscles working. And I played in this exercise and just noticed it was different from previous experiences. I was more engaged in the exercise itself. And I was really just observing my body and allowing it to do what it wanted. There was no thought to initiate.
I thought that was cool, so I went to share the experience with Rick. As I did, I noticed I was sitting in a position that I have never been aware of being in before. My feet are never on the ground when I am sitting. They are up, They are crossed. Or one may be on the ground, but on the balls of my feet. And now as I observed myself, I was in a very relaxed, comfortable, aligned, alert posture. I could sit like that all day. There was no pressure anywhere. My back was perfectly straight. I could feel the alignment of the chakras. And my feet were flat on the floor, the sides of my feet were touching, and my knees were apart.
As I wrote that I realized that we stand with our feet together like that in the new yoga classes. I think that may be new to me. At least it has been a new awareness of standing that way.
As I sat there and spoke for a couple minutes about the posture I found myself in, I could feel heat and a stirring in my root chakra. I have not felt this in a while and noticed and commented on that also. I feel like progress is being made. Well, I know progress is being made. This is new. I went back to work and played with the new sitting posture. I noticed that it was not as perfect.
Later I recognized the perfection and the energy of those early moments. I had things to do. That was spontaneous, not planned. So I went back to work out of habit. But I think this is more important. Going forward, I would like to make a new habit of staying with the energy and let it build or morph on its own. This is the kundalini energy I was looking for from the Kundalini Yoga. It is just there.
Beautiful the way a route to the Kundalini energy has opened so quickly by allowing yourself to follow an alternate path (of ease) than the traditional approach of trying to push through the path that appeared more obvious but proved somewhat blocked.